Focus, Hansel

My mind seems to be spinning off into 17 different directions. Multitasking has always been my strong suit, but my focus lately has been interrupted by random distractions. When I manage to finally sit down and give my full attention to something, I find it almost impossible to finish and immediately start contemplating another subject. I’ve always known I’ve had a restless mind, but when does restless become ruthless?

Prioritization lists are now key in my daily routine. Whereas I used to write everything in my planner, day by day, I now have to write full-blown, small-and-large-scale prioritization lists. It’s not that I am afraid I’ll forget to do something; I’m afraid that time won’t allow me to do it all.

I remember one of my friends having said, “Ugh. You are so lucky. I wish my mind worked that way.”

Do you?  Do you really?

While this restless state of mind allows me to be overly productive and worthwhile, in the end, it leaves me feeling exhausted and crabby. I get to the point where I don’t even want to watch TV because my mind still has to process and function. I end up just wanting to sleep.

I know I talk about balance a lot, and this is exactly why. No balance = no time (or what feels like no time), which ultimately leads to stupid selfish behaviors.

So if you go-go-go like me, take a second to truly think about what you’re doing to yourself. Hopefully you’ll see the light at the end of the tunnel like I did today. If not, I’ll pray that one day soon you will.